prison of sadness

assalamualaikum 

things i really wanna do right now is CRYING ! guess what ? apa semua salah aku kah ? everything is different now . i have nobody to share this . now , i'm free from school . but , still in the PRISON OF SADNESS ! how lifeless is me :(

i had done my responsibility as a student . now , i have to work ! i need to gain money . hold my own money . aku tak nak orang aku macam orang yang tak guna . aku nak independent . but , bila aku buat macam tuh , someone will say this to me " kau ingat kau dah besar sangat keh ? tak nak mengharap orang lain ? sombong sangat ! "

oh god ! i have nobody . i admit that i have a lot of friends and my bestie . they will always be by my side . aku jealous dgn kehidupan dyorang . tapi macam mana pun , ada sebab aku dilahirkan macam ni .

bukan aku taknak mengharap orang lain . i'm just tryin' to be independent . is it wrong ? lagipun , perlu ke aku mengharap bila sesuatu yang aku mintak tu diungkit ? aku tahu siapa aku .

okay , tak elok cakap macam ni sebenarnya . but , in my life i believes this quotes " it is more easy to work with someone else instead of family members " according to my experience .

to everyone yang baca post aku kali ni , tolong doakan aku akan keluar dari PRISON OF SADNESS ni . sesungguhnya , doa adalah senjata orang islam :)

be strong girl :)
assalamualaikum