confuse

yup, i am so confuse rite now.

why? sometimes, i want to give up. in this new year, would my life still be the same like before? there is no other privacy place for me. i know who i am. look tough outside but inside just Him now how many pieces my heart broke. thanks on everything happen to me. am i wrong?

miss it

assalamualaikum and good evening :)

haih , long time didn't write . miss my blog so damn . i will grow up to be a 18 girl . as what i wish so much . wonderful sangat kah umur 18 tahun ? well , i dont know . just wait and go with the flow . in just less than a week , the day will come :) wish me luck and always have a good news ever :)

pejam celik pejam celik tak sedar dah lebih sebulan aku kerja dekat situ . nak masuk dua bulan in just a few days . really enjoy myself working here . at the same time , i really miss the moment i was in the school , learning , laughing , playing *yup, i am so a playful girl* . hope , one day , when i have another chance to learn , to be in school , or in collage , or university , i handle my time correctly . no more lazy no more playful :)

loving someone who will never look at us, will never be by our side are mostly hurt. but guess what, i had gone through this before. will it be second time now? how pity my life. just can dreaming in sleep to have him. in real life, he is own by someone else. it is so funny. hoping there will be something new to me after this. i believe in The Only One Creator in this earth, Allah. no matter how hurt is me, i believe He arrange the best for me after this.

assalamualaikum :)

sekolah

assalamualaikum :)

hurm , harini dapat dah aku update . actually takde terfikir pun nak update blog harini . tapi , suddenly ada idea nak tulis . mengikut tajuk dekat atas , SEKOLAH . yup . sekolah ku . hoho . tadi aku pergi sekolah . dengan tujuan nak hantar buku . naik blog jumpa cikgu tu cikgu ni . salam . naik atas sekali sebab nak pergi makmal physics and guess what ? kelas atas sekali adalah kelas 5 gigih . haha . kelas siapa kah itu ? jeng jeng jeng . okay . abaikan . mungkin dia tahu and nampak aku tadi sebab aku pernah whatsapp dia and ada pic aku dekat whatsapp itu . so , entah .

so , that is the end  . bye ,

stuck in the momoent

assalamualaikum :)

okay , actually entry ni tak de kaitan pun dengan video kat atas ni . saje wat sedap :) ape yang aku stuck sekarang ni is my future . ye lah . bila stuck dekat tengah tengah , sure yang future tak akan sampai . haih , takde salah siapa siapa dekat sini . semua salah saya . kenapa ? sebab masa form 4 and form 5 dulu tak nak blaja betul betul . bila tak blaja betul betul mula lah tak tahu nak ambik course apa and dekat mana . seriously , salah masuk u and salah pilih course , jammed lahh . duduk lah kau bazirkan duit pinjaman . nanti kerja membazir je bayar sebab takde result yg bagus . serve you right miza :)

okay , sekarang baru survey beberapa jenis IPTA . IPTA je mampu cari . nak cari IPTS tak mampu . huhu . okay . my top choice sekarang ni adalah Universiti Kebangsaan Malaya (UKM) , Universiti Malaya (UM) , Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM) , Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM) . kesemua ni , ada course yang aku berminat . let check it out oneby one .

Universiti Kebangsaan Malaya (UKM)

okay , IPT ni ada menyediakan banyak course . dekat sini aku nak nyatakan course yang aku suka je lah . the mostly i like is Science And Technology . why ? sebab dia merangkumi Bioteknologi . UKM jugak ada menyediakan course Science Health . dalam course ni ada fakulti Environmental Health dan Forensic Science . well , memang aku environment pun . bila blaja bio , bab yang paling aku suka bukak is Dynamic Ecosystem , Photosynthesis , Transport in Plant . okay , nak cerita satu satu memang panjang karangan aku . common course is Economics and Management . ada fakuliti Business Management dan Accounting which are my interest too . and and and the last one is Engineering . common jugak . aku berminat dengan Biochemical Engineering dan Chemical Engineering . memang favourite subject pun masa sekolah dulu . just aku malas blaja so cikgu tak nampak kebolehan aku . tunggu SPM ye cikgu . it is the best from me :) okay , that is all from UKM .

Universiti Malaya (UM)

dekat sini punya course pun sama macam yang tadi . Science , Economics and Management . tapi , dia takda Health Science . tp , dia ada main subject aku . Biotech which is included under Science course . dekat UM ni ada satu lagi course tambahan yang aku tak tulis dekat UKM iaitu course Education . okay . course ni bukan apa sangat . course ni ada fakuliti Kaunseling , Childhood apa tah . tak ingat . macam interesting je . okay , pape nanti tengok result .

Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM)

okay , masa aku bukak laman web rasmi UPM ni dia tulis bahasa melayu . so , course semua dia tulis dalam bahasa melayu . it doesn't mind actually . UPM ada course Biotech , Pengajian Alam Sekitar , Sains and yang lain tak de kaitan dengan course aku . so ? tunggu result UPU lah mana dapat .

the last one but not least is Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM)

okay , tak tahu nak describe apa lagi . dia pun sama dengan semua yang tertulis dekat atas .

semua IPTA yang dinyatakan dekat atas tu adalah IPTA top lah . so , nak masuk and nak stay dekat situ kena struggle . jenis aku yang suka work out last minute sebenarnya susah . tapi , i will try . semua kampus tu dekat KL or Selangor . my mum sure marah . why not ? dia suruh cari IPT dkat pahang je . nanti kalau jauh jauh susah . banyak cost nak kena guna . so , pape pun kena tunggu result la yang paling utama . ingat kalau tak dapat result seperti yang diharapkan nak masuk Politeknik je kot . huhu , sedih nya :(

papapun doa kan saya okay . lots of love from me to you , you , you and specially for awak AH :)
assalamualaikum (:

sincere

assalamualaikum :)
yes , crush aku telah dicuri orang :)
kenapa aku cakap macam tu ? it is because my crush who i had crush on him since three years ago is stole by an anonymous girl . fine , i know who is me . compare to the anonymous girl . kfine ~

thanks god . even sakit hati sikit , but i know it is the best for me . why ? because , since i know him i always expected he so kind . but , since yesterday i saw something bad . his hair . why his hair turned reddish ? paip rumah dia rosak ea ? haha . okay aku jahat . but , after i saw it i know the truth . he is not as what i expected . chopp ! bukan maksud aku bila rambut bertukar warna means jahat . but , hurm . i don't have to explain it actually .

but , he is only my crush . opps . my ex crush . my true love is far from me . where is he ? yes . in Kajang . sometimes i thought . why i am still waiting for him even though i know he really hates me . hates me because i had lied him before . one night i dreamed something . dream about a love . a very sweet love . a caring guy and a gentle girl . when i woke up , i think of him . may be i always waiting for him , be patience with his attitude *which sometimes made me felt annoyed with him* , stick together with him even he mad at me . all of this is because i love him sincerely . what ? jiwang ? takda cinta yang tak jiwang lahh . okay , my dream now is to have a trip to Kajang . hope , i will meet him there . pray for me yaa . i love him :)

assalamualaikum you you you you and you my little cute boy :)