MUET SPEAKING

Assalamulaikum and hi <3

See my title above? Haha, I done my part. Easy? Dunno. You have to be in the situation only you can feel it.

As my experience, wake up in the morning is the hardest thing for me. But, I believe in my roommate. So, they wake me up today. Thanks.

First must have breakfast. Because once you enter the quarantine room, you cannot go out. Only with emergency case will be entertain. Kena masuk awal sebab dia nak briefing. Masa dalam bilik kuarantin tu, kita boleh buat apa je. Practice with group-mate. Memang akan rasa like butterfly in the stomach (nervous). But, must chill. Takut nanti tak boleh bercakap.

Masa sesi soal jawab, kalau boleh tanya every single word yang ada. So, akan ada masa yang lebih untuk brainstorming. Tapi still tak boleh pegang pensel.

But, believe this. Once you finish it, you will be release. That only from me. Thank you. CHU :*

Assalamulaikum and bye <3

Again?

Assalamulaikum cinta <3
"jiwang hang miza"

Again? Yehh, again to face kmj. Adakah aku seronok? TAKK!!! Kalau boleh aku ni taknak balik. Tapi dah tanggungjawab aku. Aku jugak mintak belajar jauh. Padan muka.

Aku kena kuat. Reason is dia orang harap sangat aku dapat tinggi. So, aku kena kerja kuat lagi lah ni. Dahlah aku ni bukan main lagi tahap kemalasan. Tinggi bebenor. Aduihh. And because of this aku merindui diri aku yang dulu. No wonder muka aku semakin tua. Arghhh, tidak!

Hurm,, suddenly aku tertukar mood. Dengar pulak lagu ni. Aku TAKNAK balik. Jiwa aku tak tenang! Aku nak duduk dengan mak aku. Aku tak boleh bila ada orang sakitkan hati dia. Dia sangat bersabar dengan sekeliling dia. Semua orang pun buat salah. Tapi kenapa kau tak boleh terima salah dia macam dia accept kau punya salah? Be fair lahh.

Untuk awak, lima tahun tu bukan sekejap. Selama lima tahun, banyak benda jadi. Bukan senang nak buang perasaan nihh. Walau macam mana pun aku cuba tipu diri sendiri, saya tetap sayang awak!

Just another day

"Salam Aidiladha :)"

Just another day for me, Alhamdulillah. Syukran. I have a lot to share but I don't thing I should.

Two weeks left before my final. Hope to get 4flat. But, look at my attitude. Hmm, seems like have to say bye bye to that. But I believe in Him. Still not too late for me to try smart right? I will.

Lately, I always thinking about my future. How my marriage life will be, what work I will do, where is my place with my future family. With my attitude. Oo Allah, gimmie strength! Less sleep please miza!!

Ohyaa! I had known someone and I really adore him. But, it is hard to find a very good behavior of men nowadays. Anyone agree with me? I hope so. I am also confious with all of my thought. Hurm,

      "people are judging and the way they judge really reflect theirselves"

I Have A Dream A Song To Sing

Yes, I have my own dream :) Bout my future Husband who is name given Muhd tett. Haha. Secret :) Kalau boleh link nama dia aku link dekat Twitter dia. Love you :)

Kenal dia since tahun 2010. Okay. Let only me know about him. Lalalala. Satu yang penting. Aku tak pernah bercakap dengan dia. Senyum pun tidak. Aku nak jadi Wife dia yang bercinta selepas kahwin walaupun dalam diri aku dah memang penuh dengan cintan cintun aku terhadap dia. *jiwang pulak* Aku mengharapkan dia jadi Husband aku yang paling the sweetest. Tapi aku hanya merancang. Allah s.w.t yang menentukan. Sekiranya dia memang jodoh aku, Alhamdulillah. Sekiranya tidak aku menerima dengan hati terbuka :)

To be continue ...

Change our intention

Aduh, aku memang cari penyakit ! DON'T CRY ! It is your fault. Stalk orang bagai. And then sedih. Tah pape lah kau !

Harini last paper. Yeay, tapi pintu hati aku macam terbukak nak study. Tapi macam malas. Entah lah wehh. I am not in neutral mood. Sometime hot, sometime cool.

I just have another 8 weeks to stay here my heaven. Takde tujuan lagi masa mula mula aku bukak tab untuk update ni. Tapi suddenly terkeluar satu idea.

Aku suddenly teringat pasal seorang kawan aku. Nama dia Muhammad Asyraf. Aku panggil dia Che. Kenal dia masa aku kerja dekat Parkson awal tahun ni. Ada satu malam masa aku tengah otp dengan dia. Entah macam mana keluar lah topik ni. ''Niat'''. Oh ya. Lupa. Dia sekarang belajar dekat UTM KL.

Aku pun tak ingat apa mula dia. Aku ingat tengah tengah je. Dia pergi belajar dekat UTM bukan untuk aim 4flat macam yang orang impikan dekat tempat belajar. Tapi dia dekat situ untuk menyelidik dan belajar. So, i have to change my intention here.

Aku ada niat untuk dapat 4flat dekat sini. And pengarah kolej aku pun suruh budak budak KMJ ni letak azam 4flat. So aku pun kena lah tukar niat aku. Kalau aku berniat untuk dapat 4flat tapi tak pernah faham apa yang aku belajar buat apa kan? And lagi satu. Niat nak ambik periksa bukan untuk dapat A. Tapi untuk menguji tahap otak kita. So, no need all the skop soalan yang belum tentu masuk tu. Sebab nanti habis je periksa kita pun lupa segalanya. Apa point kita belajar bertahun tahun kan? Sampai satu dekad. No wonder lah semua pun menganggur sekarang ni. Sebab tak boleh nak applikasikan apa yang dah belajar.

Alhamdulillah. Tamat lah sudah saya punya bebelan yang entah pape ni. Ni nak bagi random picture. Keep Calm and Look at My Pictures :)

perfect

I try not to think

about the pain I feel inside

did you know you use to be my hero

all the days you spend with me

now seems so far away

and it feels like you don't care anymore

and know I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never be good enough for you

and nothing's alright

nothing's gonna change the things that you I said did

nothing's gonna make this right again

please don't turn your back

just to talk to you

because you don't understand

Assalamualaikum wbt
''kalau tak jawab dosa kalau jawab sayang'' <3 p="">Alhamdulillah sehingga kini aku masih lagi Hamizah dan akan kekal selamanya Hamizah. itu janji aku pada Dia, dia dan diri aku sendiri.

Kalau korang dapat tangkap yang dekat atas tu adalah sedikit rangkap dari lirik lagu Simple Plan yang bertajuk Perfect. Lagu perfect ni sebenarnya berkaitan dengan seorang ayah yang tak boleh nak terima apa yang anak dia nak dalam hidup. Teenagers always opposite with adult. Tapi, lirik dekat atas ni telah aku transform dari untuk seorang ayah kepada seorang hero dalam hati aku.

Masa tengah blogging ni, aku ada depan laptop sambil tunggu maggi kembang, baru habis paper physics, belum mandi, and the most important thing aku tengah kawal emosi aku dari menyebabkan air mata aku gugur sambil dengar lagu yang telah ditaip liriknya di atas.

It had been a while. Aku tahan perasaan aku dari ber blogging tentang benda ni.

In five years backward, I known a guy name given by his mom and dad ____. If I can mention it, I will. But I can't. He is someone sent by my God (Allah) to change myself from bad girl to a better girl. And I fall in love with him. But I did something wrong. I don't know how to say this. But I believe "once you let something precious go from yourself, it won't come back". Yes I believe it.

Me, with no intention at all did something which everyone hate. LIE. Yup, I lied him. My identity. Only my identity. But my feeling, my surrounding and many more I never lie! Just my identity. Every day and every night I pray to my God (Allah) to open his heart to accept me for who I am and tell him who I am. Alhamdulillah, now he know me. He know my identity. But, he can't accept me for who I am. "Allah won't give you something you want, but He give you something you need". Finally my tears fall. Yes, truly I want his love. But, is it something I need to be a normal human?

Lately I tried to find someone who I can love who look attractive around me. I lie if I said there is no attractive guy around me. Many of them around me. But, they cannot be in my heart like he stay in my heart. I tried many thing to live normally without him. I stop text him, I stop call him, I start make my life busier than before. But, it is just the same. He cannot be remove from my heart and soul.

I use to pray to my God (Allah). ''make him stay in my heart, make me love him deeper if i am for him and he is for me. make him away from my heart, make my love for him fade if we are not meant to be together in the future''.

I cannot handle this alone but I don't know how to share with others. I just can write on the paper, in the screen and I cry alone.

I know I am brave reason He give me this problem. I know I am strong so He did not give me someone for me to share this. I am not hoping he will read this. And may be he never know I have a blog to write this.

Guys, please pray for me so I can be strong more and more. 

tears

assalamualaikum :)

tajuk pun dah lain macam kan. update kali ni pendek je. memandangkan blogging dgn phone. 

TEARS

harini aku just menangis je. balik kelas, pergi solat, nak tidur. nak tidur? yup sekarang air mata menitis nitis memikirkan dia. 

awak yakinkan sy awak hanya ada sy seorg. awak yakinkan saya awak syg sy. suddenly awak diamkan diri.  reason please. SAYA SAYANG AWAK ! 

life of matriculation student

assalamualaikum wbt.
setelah sekian lama jari jemari ku tidak menari di atas keyboard ini, hari ini tetap ku curi masa rehat ku untuk mencoret isi hati ku.

since the day i was here. where? KMJ stands for Kolej Matrikulasi Johor. since the day i am here, my heart, soul, emotions mixed together and produce a stress and a loner miza. wait, actually i am Hamizah. here, i am Hamizah. not Miza. i will hate you if you call me Miza here. why? because i am here for study and study for me means formal. Miza is just for someone VIP in my life.

i just wanna share something here. about my life here which is opposite with life style student of matriculation.

Registration Day or Week.
everything must did by my own. even parents or siblings cannot help in the registration room. like sucks. but, i am a patient girl. so, i keep on smiling to people that day. finished registered me, they told me to take my room key at my block. so, i went to my block name Al - Jazari which is block C. after got my key, i was shocked when looked at my key. why? guess where is my room. haha, an awesome room which is name with C 2.18. what it mean? hey, that is my date of my birthday lahh. haha, so, thanks to my mom who told us to make fast that day. :)
in the evening, we started our orientation week which is named as MPPB stands for Minggu Pengurusan Pelajar Baru. i am in class MD9. which is Modul 2 consist of subject Mathematics, Science Computer, Chemistry and Physics. oh no. actually i want Modul 1 which i don't have to take Science Computer. but, actually Science Computer is interesting to be learn. during that week, we were cared by a facilitator. a talkative and slumber girl. age around 20 or 21. okay, enough. just wanna highlight here, my classmates WERE kind and good.

Roommate of C2.18

every room consist of four students. in my room there is one from Selangor, Zarfany, one from Kedah, Amy, and the other one is from Johor, Fiza. okay. nothing much about them. at first everyone is kind hearted right? haha. so, hopefully they are truly kind. not only on this first time.

Lecture, Tutor and Lab

what is it all the three things i mentioned above? that are all the things i do in a full week from Monday to Friday. sometimes felt tired because have to going upward, downward, left and right to go to classes. yup, that is a life of a student here. sometime i felt so lazy to go to class. but, this is only first month so i must be more patient. and, truly i am alone in the class, i am alone during break. i am alone every where. why, because i hate those immature people here. sorry to say. but, i cannot stand with your attitude especially my boy classmate. asal bercakap lelaki perempuan maksudnya suka. asal mesej lelaki dan perempuan maksud suka. asal duduk sebelah sebelah dalam kelas maksud suka. WHAT THE HELL? i am here to finish up my study here with flying colors. so, you guys too. then, why i not be friend with the girls? this is a problem too. at first, everyone looked innocent. everyone so kind. that is why i mentioned above WERE KIND. because of them. firstly too islamic. aku bukan benci orang islamic. but, with your attitude, kau macam kurang layak tonjol islamic kau. islamic tak perlu ditonjol melalui luaran. tapi dengan hati. aku lagi respect all the free-hair girls outside ok. apa attitude yang diorang buat aku malas nak cerita. let bygone be bygone. as long as kau semua tak menyusahkan hidup aku, aku pun taknak cara korang. so, let me be alone with my business, and you guys mind your own business. fair and square :) i don't care if you guys label me forever alone :p

since my lecture, tutor and lab had began. so i have a lot of this  to do. what is this? this is it.

assignments

huhu, not a lot actually. just many. and  i am  sure i can handle it and finish it before the deadline :)
and actually combination off all this make me...........

stress

but, i believe. based on my stress today, it will bring success to me :)

THE END

just the way he is

post melalui handphone . macam tak best. but, i wanna share something here.

i think i never felt like this before. my life is so enjoyable. i never felt so wonderful life during waiting for someone. aactually i hate waiting for someone or something. but, suddenly i love doing this. i dunno why! may be this is the reason. HIM.

since that day i still trying my best to find the answer why he did that to me. i know he has his own reason. yup, i am so sure. but i don't know the reason and i wanna know it. how can i ask u if u always avoid yourself from me? wei so mo?

if i can mention your name. do u have ur own choice now? but, why don't u tell me the truth? yup, u are not a kind of a boy who like to cheat. i can feel it and i know it.

1. you are kind
2. sweet
3. romantic
4. honest
5. hardworking
6. loving
7. stubborn
8. funny
9. dedicated
10. EGO (the most i love)

that are the reason i love HIM. 

i just need 'somebody'

assalamualaikum to my viewer(s)

hmm, harini not really in mood. tgok tajuk tu. jarang sangat aku post blog tulis tajuk dulu. selalu aku merapu dulu baru aku fikir tajuk yg sesuai. tengok tajuk. dekat somebody tu ada inverted comma kan? why? it is because the somebody is really special. i just need him now. only him can makes my heart happy. but, i know he won't. he never want me.

i still remember. a few days before we hang out. he always text me, asked me to join him breakfast, break and so on. berkepit je. kalau time chat, baru berapa minit tak chat dia mesti cakap "rindu kat awak,". but now, dua tiga hari tak jumpa, tak mesej, tak chat, nothing. why? awak buat saya fall in love dengan awak pastu awak buat dunno je. mmg sifat lelaki macam ni ke?

lumrah hidup

assalamualaikum :)

harini hidup saya gembira sangat. betul lah cakap orang. kita kena always think positive. hidup pun always positive. semalam seharian sy tak tidur sebab menghadap art work sy yang comel. nak show off but it is too private. just my love yg boleh tengok. itupun if dia mintak. kalau tak mintak, sampai bila bila pun ada dalam simpanan aku aje lahh.

yg jadi lama benda tu bukan sebab apa sangat. sebab chat dengan orang tu. orang ni. haha. memang tak jadi kerja aku. tak pasal pasal ada benda yang mengganggu aku. benda apakah? tett. taknak sebut. nnti dia kacau aku lagi.

before yesterday, i always thought he hates me. he don't wanna be with me. but, since yesterday i know a thing. why he acted like that. i understand you now and hope will understand you more than this. and thanks to that sis. tolong saya banyak banyak pasal my little ZAZA ni. without your words, i think i am giving him up :) thanks sangat sangat akak. saya sayang akak :D

bangang

assalamualaikum :)

aku nak kekuatan ! sungguh tidak ku tahan. berhadapan dengan this big girl. awak, awak dah 20 something right? awak dah matang dari saya. kenapa awak tak boleh fikir apa yang awak buat tu salah atau betul? tolong sis. buat jatuh maruah perempuan. ok, aku pun belum tentu jaga maruah kaum perempuan. dengan perangai aku ''perigi cari timba'' ni. macam desperate nak kan seorang lelaki. ok.. stupid miza. pas ni, aku dah taknak cara mana mana lelaki. nak jadi perempuan yang tersangat mahal. and buat masa sekarang aku hanya akan betul betul tunggu satu hati je. sampai dia betul betul cakap dan berterus terang dengan aku yang dia takda perasaan walau sedikit pun terhadap aku =D ''saya dah cakap saya degil awak taknak percaya.'' saya suka awak =D

blog kali ni taknak letak gambar sebab internet kura kura sangat. bodoh! ok, sorry.

twitter pun lambat moving.

harini, aku keluar wearing hijab. bukan sebab keluar dengan kawan i yang pakai niqab. but, mmg aku dah berniat untuk berjinak dengan tudung. sampai bila aku nak bagi dosa kat ayah aku right? aku selalu cakap kat diri sendiri aku tak ready untuk bertudung. tp, at the same time aku cakap kat diri sendiri jugak yang mati tak tunggu bila kita ready.

sometimes, aku selesa bertudung. tapi, bila aku bertudung aku rasa aktiviti aku terbatas. arghh. ok, post aku kali ni mmg sengal. sebab otak aku sangat bercelaru. ada ke patut seorang sis tadi cakap macma ni kat aku ''amboi, pakai tudung pulak!'' like, akak suka hati saya lahh. sekurang kurang nya saya tak curang dgn boyfriend saya walaupun boyfriend saya jauh. apa guna pakai tudung dada terbukak jugak. apa guna pakai tudung tapi tak solat! apa guna pakai tudung tapi buat dosa. ehh, pergi mmpus lahh. aku sumpah rimas dengan kau. nak sangat transfer kan. pergi lahh. buat amal jariah banyak banyak kat sana ye. huh, bakpe aku emo? bukan hanya sebab dia tegur aku macam tu tadi. tapi, aku sakit hati dengan perangai bajet baik dia tu. konon aku bawak mulut pasal dia cakap pasal dia dgn mamat tu. hello! aku ke engkau yang bawak? siap cerita dekat promoter tu yang aku jeles kau dengan mamat tu sebab tu aku bawak mulut. kau, mmg dah tahap melampau kot. buat pengetahuan umum, aku sangat bahagia menunggu my only one ZAZA. siapa ZAZA? well, teka sendiri. dia jauh lagi baik walaupun selalu sakit kan hati aku. at least dia berterus terang dgn aku. jujur dgn aku. korang? huh, menyakitkan jiwa aku je.

please, i am only eighteen. i just wanna have some fun. don't pull me in your soul problem. tahu kau sumbat boyfriend kau jauh. aku pun pernah couple jauh. aku dengan dia tahan je. setahun lebih lagi tu. kau? gatal sangat nak berkepit dgn jantan lain. 

kenapa aku cakap macam tu? aku ingt lagi first aku masuk cashier parkson tu. bila aku satu kaunter dengan kau, kau mesti nak rehat pukul 11.30. dgn akak akak cashier lama. so, kitorang yang baru baru ni terpaksa lahh rehat lambat. just after i told you i like this supervisor who had a love feeling towards you, rehat dah taknak pukul 11.30. asyik nak pukul 2 je. dari kaunter 3 nak ambik air dekat toilet staff pusing sampai department dia. pastu lagi nak cakap org bawak mulut hal kau? org ada mata. bukan aku sorang perasan benda tu. ramai lagi. and

FOR YOUR INFORMATION! AKU TAK

BAWAK CERITA PASAL KAU! JUST THERE 

IS AN INFORMER TOLD ME. PUAS HATI 

KAU? TAK PAYAH NAK UPDATE DEKAT FB 

KONON KONON AKU YANG BAWAK 

CERITA KAU. DOSA BESAR WEHH FITNAH TU

 tak cukup lagi ke dosa kau buat aku sakit hati? sedar ye sis.

kayu

assalamualaikum :)

salah siapakah aku jadi macam ni? wait. aku jadi macam mana? hmm, macam ni.

hurm, lebih kurang angau lahh kan. so, salah siapa aku jadi macam ni? salah orang yang buat aku jadi angau ke? dia tak pernah suruh pun kan. aku je saje gatal gatal nak minat kat dia sangat. so, salah aku? bukan aku yang mintak nak suka dia. so, siapa? yang Maha Satu tak pernah salah k. okay, actually aku takde tajuk nak blogging. that is why aku merapu.

setiap satu status aku dekat fb semua nya ada maksud. aku tak pernah update benda sembarangan. lagu lagu yang aku post dekat fb pun bukan saja. setiap lagu tu ada makna yang aku cuba sampai kan pada seseorang. just sama ada dia perasan atau tak je.

okay, gmbr kat atas ni memang sangat sangat takde kaitan. nak cari gmbr lain tapi jumpa gambar lain. okay, setelah 18 tahun aku hidup ni, aku rasa aku dah tahu aku suka lelaki yang macam mana. mungkin dulu aku pernah update. entah ada lagi ke tak. tak penting. tapi, aku memang cari penyakit sebab bila aku perhati kenapa aku sentiasa sedih masa aku suka kan someone adalah sebab setiap yang aku suka tu adalah mamat jiwa kayu. aku mintak perhatian dari kayu. mana dia tahu nak bagi perhatian macam mana kan. and, kenapa aku suka  mamat kayu. sebab nya, first dyorang ni kaan manusia jugak. so, dyorang ada sebenarnya apa yang aku cari. tp, tak mudah untuk dia tunjuk kan pada org sembarangan. itu istimewa nya lelaki kayu ni. so, aku yakin, harini aku kejar mamat kayu, esok mamat kayu kejar aku. Allah tu Maha Adil. :)

so, that's the end. assalamualaikum and good night *night lagi ke?*

the truth

assalamualaikum :)

harini dah pun masuk 21st of February 2013. untuk sape yg smbut birthday, happy birthday. untuk siapa yang tengah makan hati, eat carefully. jangan sampai tercekik ;)

makin hari, mood nak pergi kerja semakin kurang. aku just pergi kerja sebab aku nak breakfast dgn dia, lunch dengan dia, dinner dengan dia. nak berkepit je dengan dia sepanjang masa. but, kitorg kerja. tak boleh nak always together. dia pun sure rimas dengan aku. dia pernah cakap dia hanya anggap aku macam bestie dia. and aku anggap dia macam someone special. so, the meaning is totally different.

aku kenal dia dah more than 2 month. tp, aku rapat dgn dia baru je beberapa hari. tp, silently aku dah tersuka dia. sangat sangat sangat. macam mana nak buang the little perasaan. so, aku terpaksa jadi fake lagi. untuk setiap episod 'love' aku mesti akan ada scene fake. haha. mungkin mmg aku dilahirkan sebegini. this is my fate :)

mungkinkah akan ada scene macam ni antara aku dengan dia. oh God. how much he stole my heart. how can i forget him? a sweet and funny guy who always act like a weirdo. always smile even had been scolded. dedication in his work. he is maybe not handsome but he really take my heart. no more space for other unless he totally let me go.

for awak, setiap satu saat kite berdua saya tak pernah lupa. the way you treat me. the way you act. sometimes i had confused with your attitude. maybe because we still not know each other. awak selalu bangga diri bila bercakap dengan saya. awak sangat ego. tapi, bila dengan orang lain nothing. what it mean? awk berharap saya akan benci awak ke? awak, saya suka awak. not as a bestie but as my special someone. if i can mention your name. ILY

menunggu bulan jatuh ke riba

assalamualaikum :)

first of all, fuhhhhh. tiup habuk yg penuh dalam blog ni. lama tak update. suddenly harini nak update.

 harini, genap lahh umur aku 18 tahun. and harini first time ever in my life aku keluar berdua dengan someone yang aku suka. memandangkan dia tak jengok blog aku, so aku dengan suka hatinya meng update apa yg aku rasa.

apa yang aku buat masa keluar harini tak perlu diceritakan. biar aku je yang tahu apa yang aku rasa. happy ke tak.

well, aku hanya perempuan biasa.mengharap orang yang aku suka, kembali suka pada aku. but, aku hanya seorang perempuan. yang boleh aku buat sekarang just wait and hope he will like me back as i do.

aku tak tahu kenapa aku setabah ni. wait, selalu bila aku suka seseorang tu aku selalu tak dapat seperti apa yang aku impikan. aku percaya pada karma. so, setiap kali benda ni jadi aku selalu fikir. aku ada buat macam tu pada org ke? ada ke orang yang suka aku? macam takde kan. so, kenapa karma? what the hell. haha. kfine, forget it.

so, my life just to wait for something or someone which or who will never be mine. awesome guys. this is so awesome. but, as usual. i believe in karma. today i wait for someone or something faithfully and after there is someone or something wait for me faithfully. i know He arrange the best for my life.

 life will be nothing if we started our life with happiness and never feel the moment to cry.
believe me you will never know the meaning of life :) the truth life (y) i love my life and i hope you too

crying

mengapa tajuk menangis? actually it is about something i really want. what is it?

tajuk menangis bukan sebab aku yang menangis. tapi, aku mahukan seseorang yang menangis demi aku. menangis kerana aku. mungkin dengar macam keterlaluan. tapi, aku teringin rasa sebegitu. tak pernah seumur hidup aku jumpa dengan lelaki yang sentiasa ingin lihat aku bahagia. tak pernah aku lihat lelaki yang sentiasa mendoakan kebahagiaan aku. tak pernah ada seorang lelaki pun yang sanggup berkorban untuk aku.

selama aku hidup ni, lelaki yang aku selalu jumpa is lelaki yang ego. lelaki yang sering hina aku. lelaki yang selalu permainkan aku. lelaki yang tak pernah jujur dengan aku. lelaki yang tidak pernah sedikit pun sanggup berkorban untuk aku.
p/s : tolong terasa pada yang buat.

aku seorang perempuan. jahat sangat ke aku? teruk sangat ke aku? buruk sangat ke perangai aku? perempuan untuk dilindungi. perempuan untuk disayangi. perempuan untuk dikasihi. perempuan untuk disayangi. perempuan bukan untuk dipermain.

sometimes, i give up on my life. hope i am a lesbian. hope i have no feel about boys about love. sometimes, you made me hate my life. but, i keep on my faith to Allah. i know, He arrange the best for me. i know the best always wait for me in front. i need someone to always be by my side. to all of you yang sering hina aku. cakap aku bukan perempuan sejati. cakap aku macam macam lagi, i hope you realize something. i am not like that. i accept your words with smile. but, inside my heart had broken into small and small pieces.

oo Allah, please keep my heart faith to You. i am tired of this feeling. when i said i like them, i mean it. is it wrong? oo Allah, please make i am stronger to face this reality. oo Allah, i believe in You.

the difference

assalamualaikum :)

what is the difference? difference between what?

start our difference with this. first, our name. my name is Miza and she ___. i am 18 and she, i don't know actually :). i am free hair and she is wearing hijab. cute? hurm she may be. if not, that guy wont love her. haha
the most important part is this.

aku menyukai, dia disukai. aku menyayangi, dia disayangi. aku menunggu, dia ditunggu. aku mengajak, dia diajak. aku mengistimewakan, dia diistimewakan.

bila agaknya aku akan bertukar kepada dia. haha. day dreaming lah miza. you not deserve that.

new lover

haha. selok nye aku update dekat blog yang aku ada new lover. eleh, korang ade? takkan? jangan jeles meyh. kalau takde dok diam diam ye.

who takes my heart? someone who always with me in this two days. always with me where ever i go. i love love love 'dia' so much. let me introduce 'dia', my new lover ;)

apa jantina dia? she is a girl. my baby girl. actually taknak pun isi nama dia 'miza_ghani'. tapi, masa tengah isi nama dia, suddenly otak stuck. tak tahu nak pilih nama ape yang best. well, she will be my very lovely daughter starting from today. who is her father? well, i hope her father is someone who introduce me to her. someone i cannot mention his name. someone that i love, someone that i need to always be by my side, someone who always make my heart beats so fast. well, for me he is so sweet. hoping he will be mine one day. just for now, my daughter has no father. huuu,

i am sorry sayang if you have no father. just for a while. if he won't come, i will be your mom and dad. darling, you are mine forever.

for now, i think i am so addicted to her. being with her, playing with her, feeding her. i enjoyed doing this so much :) oh my god, she is so cute. muka manja. muaahhh!

I LOVE YOU, DARLING ~
 

sayang

kau, perlu ke kau cerita pasal aku dekat orang lain. salah ke aku suke dia? salah ke aku sayang dia? well, it is true. so? memang ramai cakap dia nak usya kau. so? perlu kau cerita dekat org? tak kan? itu privacy antara aku dan dia. apa2 jadi itu hanya antara aku dengan dia. hurm, never thought i will meet someone mulut busuk macam kau.

the reason

dulu dan sekarang. kurang perubahan dalam hidup aku. yang berubah hanya lah seseorang yg isi tempat dalam hati aku. kenapa aku melalut?

tak tahu! hati aku tak tenang. jiwa aku kacau. perlu ke aku menangis lagi setiap malam menahan segala keperitan yang aku alami? mungkin salah aku sebab jatuh hati pada seseorang yg famous, yang handsome, yang smart, yang disukai ramai orang. salah au sebab tak sedar diri. aku takde sifat yang membolehkan aku berpasangan dgn orang mcam tu tapi aku berharap tinggi untuk bersama. now, i failed. fail to arrange my emotion correctly.

baru dia cakap dia suka aku. but, i don't think it is true. who is me? i am nobody compares to his 'sayang'. i am nothing! dia selalu mengelak bila aku ajak rehat sama. keluar sama. what it mean? it mean aku hanya perasan sorang. hahaha. how stupid i am. terlalu mudah untuk jatuh dalam perangkap si lelaki.

SERVE YOU RIGHT MIZA!!

perigi cari timba

perigi? timba? what the hell with my entry today? hurm, budakbudak punya update kan. apa maksud perigi cari timba? timba hilang, tak munculmuncul kan diri. perigi tumbuh kaki, pergi cari timba. rindu mungkin. hahaha. miza stupid!

okay, actually this is the meaning :

hurm, salah ke benda ni? we just trying to be with someone we love. is it wrong? god, show me the truth. if he is the best for me, give me his heart but if not just let me free from this feeling. tired of crying, tired of waiting, hurt of this love.

awak, kalau awak memang tak rasa macam apa yang saya rasa, boleh tak awk jgn jadi sweet talker? awak tahu, berperang dengan perasaan sendiri lagi sakit dari berperang dengan musuh negara. tak perlu awak cakap perkara2 bohong. saya tahu saya noob. saya tahu saya slow. but, it really doesn't mean i don't know something about your life. you made my life confused. mess up. just tell me clearly. i'm begging you so much. don't ever lie me.

confuse

yup, i am so confuse rite now.

why? sometimes, i want to give up. in this new year, would my life still be the same like before? there is no other privacy place for me. i know who i am. look tough outside but inside just Him now how many pieces my heart broke. thanks on everything happen to me. am i wrong?

miss it

assalamualaikum and good evening :)

haih , long time didn't write . miss my blog so damn . i will grow up to be a 18 girl . as what i wish so much . wonderful sangat kah umur 18 tahun ? well , i dont know . just wait and go with the flow . in just less than a week , the day will come :) wish me luck and always have a good news ever :)

pejam celik pejam celik tak sedar dah lebih sebulan aku kerja dekat situ . nak masuk dua bulan in just a few days . really enjoy myself working here . at the same time , i really miss the moment i was in the school , learning , laughing , playing *yup, i am so a playful girl* . hope , one day , when i have another chance to learn , to be in school , or in collage , or university , i handle my time correctly . no more lazy no more playful :)

loving someone who will never look at us, will never be by our side are mostly hurt. but guess what, i had gone through this before. will it be second time now? how pity my life. just can dreaming in sleep to have him. in real life, he is own by someone else. it is so funny. hoping there will be something new to me after this. i believe in The Only One Creator in this earth, Allah. no matter how hurt is me, i believe He arrange the best for me after this.

assalamualaikum :)

sekolah

assalamualaikum :)

hurm , harini dapat dah aku update . actually takde terfikir pun nak update blog harini . tapi , suddenly ada idea nak tulis . mengikut tajuk dekat atas , SEKOLAH . yup . sekolah ku . hoho . tadi aku pergi sekolah . dengan tujuan nak hantar buku . naik blog jumpa cikgu tu cikgu ni . salam . naik atas sekali sebab nak pergi makmal physics and guess what ? kelas atas sekali adalah kelas 5 gigih . haha . kelas siapa kah itu ? jeng jeng jeng . okay . abaikan . mungkin dia tahu and nampak aku tadi sebab aku pernah whatsapp dia and ada pic aku dekat whatsapp itu . so , entah .

so , that is the end  . bye ,

stuck in the momoent

assalamualaikum :)

okay , actually entry ni tak de kaitan pun dengan video kat atas ni . saje wat sedap :) ape yang aku stuck sekarang ni is my future . ye lah . bila stuck dekat tengah tengah , sure yang future tak akan sampai . haih , takde salah siapa siapa dekat sini . semua salah saya . kenapa ? sebab masa form 4 and form 5 dulu tak nak blaja betul betul . bila tak blaja betul betul mula lah tak tahu nak ambik course apa and dekat mana . seriously , salah masuk u and salah pilih course , jammed lahh . duduk lah kau bazirkan duit pinjaman . nanti kerja membazir je bayar sebab takde result yg bagus . serve you right miza :)

okay , sekarang baru survey beberapa jenis IPTA . IPTA je mampu cari . nak cari IPTS tak mampu . huhu . okay . my top choice sekarang ni adalah Universiti Kebangsaan Malaya (UKM) , Universiti Malaya (UM) , Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM) , Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM) . kesemua ni , ada course yang aku berminat . let check it out oneby one .

Universiti Kebangsaan Malaya (UKM)

okay , IPT ni ada menyediakan banyak course . dekat sini aku nak nyatakan course yang aku suka je lah . the mostly i like is Science And Technology . why ? sebab dia merangkumi Bioteknologi . UKM jugak ada menyediakan course Science Health . dalam course ni ada fakulti Environmental Health dan Forensic Science . well , memang aku environment pun . bila blaja bio , bab yang paling aku suka bukak is Dynamic Ecosystem , Photosynthesis , Transport in Plant . okay , nak cerita satu satu memang panjang karangan aku . common course is Economics and Management . ada fakuliti Business Management dan Accounting which are my interest too . and and and the last one is Engineering . common jugak . aku berminat dengan Biochemical Engineering dan Chemical Engineering . memang favourite subject pun masa sekolah dulu . just aku malas blaja so cikgu tak nampak kebolehan aku . tunggu SPM ye cikgu . it is the best from me :) okay , that is all from UKM .

Universiti Malaya (UM)

dekat sini punya course pun sama macam yang tadi . Science , Economics and Management . tapi , dia takda Health Science . tp , dia ada main subject aku . Biotech which is included under Science course . dekat UM ni ada satu lagi course tambahan yang aku tak tulis dekat UKM iaitu course Education . okay . course ni bukan apa sangat . course ni ada fakuliti Kaunseling , Childhood apa tah . tak ingat . macam interesting je . okay , pape nanti tengok result .

Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM)

okay , masa aku bukak laman web rasmi UPM ni dia tulis bahasa melayu . so , course semua dia tulis dalam bahasa melayu . it doesn't mind actually . UPM ada course Biotech , Pengajian Alam Sekitar , Sains and yang lain tak de kaitan dengan course aku . so ? tunggu result UPU lah mana dapat .

the last one but not least is Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM)

okay , tak tahu nak describe apa lagi . dia pun sama dengan semua yang tertulis dekat atas .

semua IPTA yang dinyatakan dekat atas tu adalah IPTA top lah . so , nak masuk and nak stay dekat situ kena struggle . jenis aku yang suka work out last minute sebenarnya susah . tapi , i will try . semua kampus tu dekat KL or Selangor . my mum sure marah . why not ? dia suruh cari IPT dkat pahang je . nanti kalau jauh jauh susah . banyak cost nak kena guna . so , pape pun kena tunggu result la yang paling utama . ingat kalau tak dapat result seperti yang diharapkan nak masuk Politeknik je kot . huhu , sedih nya :(

papapun doa kan saya okay . lots of love from me to you , you , you and specially for awak AH :)
assalamualaikum (:

sincere

assalamualaikum :)
yes , crush aku telah dicuri orang :)
kenapa aku cakap macam tu ? it is because my crush who i had crush on him since three years ago is stole by an anonymous girl . fine , i know who is me . compare to the anonymous girl . kfine ~

thanks god . even sakit hati sikit , but i know it is the best for me . why ? because , since i know him i always expected he so kind . but , since yesterday i saw something bad . his hair . why his hair turned reddish ? paip rumah dia rosak ea ? haha . okay aku jahat . but , after i saw it i know the truth . he is not as what i expected . chopp ! bukan maksud aku bila rambut bertukar warna means jahat . but , hurm . i don't have to explain it actually .

but , he is only my crush . opps . my ex crush . my true love is far from me . where is he ? yes . in Kajang . sometimes i thought . why i am still waiting for him even though i know he really hates me . hates me because i had lied him before . one night i dreamed something . dream about a love . a very sweet love . a caring guy and a gentle girl . when i woke up , i think of him . may be i always waiting for him , be patience with his attitude *which sometimes made me felt annoyed with him* , stick together with him even he mad at me . all of this is because i love him sincerely . what ? jiwang ? takda cinta yang tak jiwang lahh . okay , my dream now is to have a trip to Kajang . hope , i will meet him there . pray for me yaa . i love him :)

assalamualaikum you you you you and you my little cute boy :)